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I WANT A NEW GUITAR!!!

Sun, 23 Sep 2007 13:48:19 GMT

It's been 6 years since my dad bought me a guitar, a very poorly manufactured "Pyramid" brand which we purchased from Guitar Collections, Sunway Pyramid back in 2001/2002. It's neck and nut distance relative to the neck is way too high for comfortable playing (not about to talk about sounds yet), it hurts my finger even from the first time i played on it, but it is a very good machine to make my fingers rigid and strong for more advanced guitar playing!

I dont know if it's a blessing or otherwise that my first guitar was also the reason i gave up playing guitar until recently, i was compelled to see a better praise and worship in my very "grey" church. So i decided to take it out of the cupboard again to practise. It only took 1 week to prepare my fingers for more advanced guitar playing with this under appreciated old guitar of mine. I was changing chords and strumming freely after 1 month of playing on my "orphaned" Yamaha APX-T 1, left behind by my uncle who used to crash at my house (thank God).

Yet, im still not satisfied, i felt that i needed something with more ooomph, the Yamaha doesnt provide enough kick as lower end Yamahas give below mediocre sound quality. My dad doesnt allow me to touch the Yamaha anyway cos according to him, it still belongs to my uncle (who's never claimed it since he left 2/3yrs ago). I wanna bring a guitar that's mine, i wanna play for the CF!, i wanna play for my church!, i want to have a guitar which i could freely claim that it's mine! All my desires for a guitar just so that i could offer a sacrifice of praise and worship by playing Gospel tunes and singing to Him.

My prayer to the Lord is to be able to play the guitar so that i could play for a worship team and whenever i'm alone and in the call to worship alone. I dont intend to play it professionally, though i know, it is just eventual after years of constant guitar playing, exploring and experience (praise Him again), if it's what pleases Him.

A few hundred ringgit accoustic SC, Farida, SX etc with pickup for now would do just fine, just looking forward to the day that i'd be able to work for my own guitar! Or maybe God would just bless me through someone, ha ha.

Well, in the end, it still goes back to the conclusion that i love You, Lord! Please dont leave me, i'd rather lose everything than not having You, my God. How i long to worship You, through music, which is also how u drew me to You. (happy!)

Thanks for your time reading my expression, may God bless u all brothers and sisters.

Hunny Honey Back in exactly a week's time!!!

Sat, 22 Sep 2007 07:52:31 GMT

Whee~~~

After a long long long wait of 7months, she's finally coming home. Some questions in my head now are:

1) How does she look like after being in NZ for 7 months
2) How well does the saying 'absence makes the heart grow fonder' apply to us?

3) What's she gonna do when she sees me at the airport?

4) What am i gonna do at the spur of that moment?

Hehe, guess i just gotta find out >"<

Everytime i press enter it skips 2 spaces, why? @@" somebody help me?!

Think im a gonna start blogging again =)

Fri, 21 Sep 2007 22:27:45 GMT

Think im gonna start blogging again xD

alrite, adioz, ciaouz!!!
-still sleepy...

I GOT TAGGED!!!!! this is just too crazy!!!

Wed, 18 Oct 2006 08:17:55 GMT

1. Full name: Aaron Kong Tze Kwang

2. Name Backwards: Kong Kwang Tze Aaron

3. Were you named after someone: i think i was named after my father's eldest son, whose name is Aaron ;p

4. Meaning of name: Originates from Hebrew, means shining light, high mountain, messenger

5. Nickname: King kong, Fan shu (potato in canto), piggie, dua pui (fat ass in hokkien)

6. Screen Name: aaronkong

7. D.O.B: 13th January 1986

8. Place of Birth: Kuching, Sarawak

9. Nationality: Malaysian

10. Current Location: Taman Seri Taming, Cheras

11. Star Sign: Gemini

12. Religion: Christian

13. Height: 177 centimetres

14. Weight: 8.1333333 tonnes

15. Shoe Size: size 11

16. Hair Colour: Orange

17. Eye Colour: Dark brown

18. Who do you look like: I look like myself lar~ I'm unique!!!

19. Innie or Outtie: Err, both? ;D

20. Leftie or Rightie: Rightie

21. Gay, Straight, Bi or others: Err... i am married, no children yet... oh, to a fine woman, praise Lord!!!

22. Best Friend : Jesus!!!

23. Best Friend You Trust Most : Jesus!!

24. Favourite Pals: Jon Mah, Ian, Chien Yih, Weng Keng

25. Best Friend(s) of Opposite Sex: Errrrr... the closest i am is to the gals in da CF lor, don hang around with much girls, was a shy guy =p (MoJoJo, Krishing, Sin Lan, Su Ann) <<< ini kira close lah

26. Best Buddies: ehhhh... why repeat wan?????

27. Boyfriend or Girlfriend: wife? Syn-Vy^^

28. Crush: was back in January, now i'm married to her =p

29. Parents: Yes!!! and I LOVE THEM!!! mommy, daddy, aishiteru!!!

30. Worst Enemy: No enemies.. I think ;p

31. Favourite Online Guy: No one in particular

32. Favourite Online Girl: No one in particular as well

33. Craziest Friend: semua pun got their gila sides wan...

34. Advice Friend: Jon, Ian, Darren Loh

36. Person You Cry with : the one and only privelleged one... Syn-Vy, not really infront lar, on da phone (issh secret ter-bongkar)

37. Any sisters: i WISH

38. Any Brothers: THREE!!! one 18, two other kids aged 13 and 7... they're all cute, single, but im not sure about their sexuality =p

39. Any Pets: 2 dogs, 1 bulldog (ugly fella), and 1 shih tzu, both are smelly, and equally cute and ugly!! oh, my mom named them "Wealthy" and "Prosper" respectively ;p (she got too much of Lilian Too)

40. Any Disease: My weakness is food!!! is that a disease?

41. Pagers: HUH? Still in use???

42. Personal Phone Line: DiGi...

43. Cell Phone: Samsung SGH-510c

45. Pool or Hot Tub: Jacuzzi!!!

46. A Car: my dad's '05 Nissan Sentra soon =P

47. Your Personality: i got split personality~

48. Driving: Errr, yeah, 30km per hour near housing estates, 50km per hour on highways, havent drove independantly yet tho =p

49. Room : my comfy room, and my stinky favourite pillow since my baby days xD

50. What's Missing : my wife beside me every nite and wake up wif me in the morning, arms in arms... ^__~V

51. School: College lah... University College Sedaya International (A-Levels)

52. Bed Colour : Currenly teddy bear bedsheet with red background

53. Relationship with Parents: Pretty good... i think...

54. Believe in Yourself: BELIEVE IN GOD!!!

55. Believe in Love at First Sight: Nuuuuuuuuuu, love requires grace too^^

56. Good Listener: Should be... but very scarce on opinions tho, depending on topic =p

57. Get Along Well with Parents: Yea as long as they don't nag hahaa

58. Save Email Conversations: I've LOGGED EVERY MINUTE me and Syn chatted ever since we started talking online, but she never =(

59. Pray: Everyday, i think about the Lord everytime~

60. Believe in Reincarnation: it's just plain crap~

61. Make Fun of People: Used to, and still do... It's pretty hysterical, but God said no... gotta cut out...

62. Like to Talk on the Phone: 5hours? 6hours straight... YES!!!

63. Want to Get Married: ApA NI??? I AM MARRIED!!!

64. Like to Drive: Dont like to drive, just racing =p

65. Motion Sickness: Nope

66. Eat Stem of Broccoli: Yup

67. Eat Chicken with Fork: Doh...

68. Dream in Colour : not that i know of...

69. Type with Your Fingers on Home Role: dont get u

70. Sleep with Stuff Animals : Errr... Secret...

71. Next to You : fan? wind? air molecules? lol...

72. On the Walls of your Room: Lights, aircond unit, and cabinet...

73. On your Mousepad: my mouse and my hand

74. Dream Car : 1960 Ford Mustang, 10,000 CC V12 engine!!! shake whole taman midah awake at night... HAHAHAHA...

75. Dream Date : my room... =p

76. Dream Honeymoon Spot: on one of the island resorts in Maldives... just me and my girl... and God with us...

77. Dream Husband or Wife : sudah dapat... memang too good to be true^^

78. Bedtime : normally 2 am, sometimes 6pm... =p

79. Under your Bed: old books, dust, dumbell, and a big stick to wack thieves lol...

80. Single Most Important Question: Supper dad?

81. Bad Time of a Day: when gaduh wif my sayang =(

82. Your Worst Fear : my darling leaves me or God takes her away from me =(

83. The Weather is : HAZY~~~ Grrrrrrrr...

84. Time: 5:06pm

85. Date: 18th October 2006

86. Best Trick I Did on Someone : thumb tacks behind Jonathan's bag back in form2... HE DIDNT KNOW WHAT POKED HIM!!! LOLOLOLOLOLOL~~~!!!

87. Theme Song : As the dear panteth for the water, so my soul longs after You...

88. Hardest Thing About Growing Up : being lazy...

89. Funniest Experience : was walking in a home fair, suddenly this malay lady starts calling me sayang behind me and she was busy looking this oven brochure, when she looked up, i wasnt her husband so she said sorry and went looking for his husband... =p

90. Scariest Experience : got locked up in the toilet cos i cursed too much when i was 6, it's more to saddening now... =p

91. Silliest Thing You Have Ever Said : Cant really remember, got a few... will post when i recall =p

92. Scariest Thing While You Are with Your Friends : spirit of the coin...

93. Worst Feeling : Being left out

94. Best Feeling in the World : When I see God face to face haah

95. Tag 4 people to do this : EHEHEHE *EVIL GRIN*

1. Ian!!!

2. Chien Yih? if u sudah kena tag then nvm...

3. Sorry lar, notmuch ppl on my subscribbed list

4. >"<

Everything Happens for a reason

Tue, 27 Jun 2006 18:49:43 GMT

When i first met you, you were no more than a stranger to me, brought under one roof in the realm of His grace. Who would ever predicted, two complete strangers who casually chatted online would get together and be lovers.

It came to me when i was chatting with a girl named Syn-Vy, Lew. We spend quite a few hours online chatting almost everyday; sharing thoughts and opinions and having casual conversations. However, i still believe that His grace has brought us both to grow closer to one another. It just came to the time and we talked about our family's struggles, and other personal matters. She even told me about her father's illness, one family secret which i would truly mind telling many about. As a stranger guy whom she met online, i felt that this attachment was special. Later however, i find that it has already been a something known by many of her guy online friends.

At the struck of His bell, her father received a second major stroke, infamous for its lethalness, just about a week after she told me about her father's incident. Perculiar as it seems, i somehow felt that God did want me to care for this girl whom at first, i find special. It was on a Saturday afternoon, 04/03/2006, she chose to SMS me informing me about her absense for W.O.E.; a two-times-weekly event in the game that we play. She asked me to inform our guild leader that she would not be able to make it on that day. I did what she requested, but it did not stop there. I continously SMSed her to make sure that she was alright, and as the both of us are Christians, it was easy to communicate and comfort her with the word of God.

to be continued...

Everything Happens for a reason

Tue, 27 Jun 2006 18:09:08 GMT

"Bad Day" - Daniel Powter

Where is the moment we needed the most
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost
They tell me your blue skies fade to grey
They tell me your passion's gone away
And I don't need no carryin' on

You stand in the line just to hit a new low
You're faking a smile with the coffee to go
You tell me your life's been way off line
You're falling to pieces everytime
And I don't need no carryin' on

Cause you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day
You had a bad day

Well you need a blue sky holiday
The point is they laugh at what you say
And I don't need no carryin' on

You had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day

(Oh.. Holiday..)

Sometimes the system goes on the blink
And the whole thing turns out wrong
You might not make it back and you know
That you could be well oh that strong
And I'm not wrong

So where is the passion when you need it the most
Oh you and I
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost

Cause you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
You've seen what you like
And how does it feel for one more time
You had a bad day
You had a bad day

Had a bad day
Had a bad day
Had a bad day
Had a bad day
Had a bad day

Tuesday, January 31, 2006

Tue, 31 Jan 2006 06:32:09 GMT

I'm bored.

Monday, January 23, 2006

Mon, 23 Jan 2006 19:30:34 GMT

Well well, it's been a long 67 days since i've last wrote here.
Didn't know why did that urge came to me, though i've been planning to update this blog for weeks.
So let's talk, shall we?

My Life:

Day in and out, i might not be clueless of my purpose on earth, but i often lose touch with it. I often backslide, and saying grace or a daily prayer seemed no more but mere words.

Self improvements deemed useless when i lose motivation of my purpose. My speech, thinking, attitude, it all seemed wrong. I have been telling myself, "Aaron!! Why do u let ur mind wander off and let the Devil influence you? Isn't he your enemy?!?!?!"

I am aware of many thoughts, and i believe many others does, too. It is true, indeed, very true, when Jesus said that He is the Shepard sent by the Father to bring men back to the Light.

I love Jesus, and i love the Father, but i just came to realise that to love Him means more than to believe in Him. He wants us to live for His GLORY. I long to be God's beloved child, and i believe that i am, but being just that, i have not glorified His name yet.

I realise that i am still, a young, selfish, foolish, disobedient, rude, and attrocious being who claims to be a Christian. When people questioned me of my religion, i sometimes reluctantly answer them, as i feel that i am only a leecher of the family. Probably the reason that i haven't found a church is because of my stubborness. Maybe He wants me to discover myself before i am commited into a church. Although ironically, i've read a daily devotional saying, "The best way to learn the Christian way of life is to join a Church". Maybe this is again His way to educate me.

Ppl always say in the forums that i visit quite often, saying "Life Sux". I can see why they say that, and thought that i will always be on track, but now, i feel it too. It does suck when u are un-anchored and you seem to float like a ship that goes where the wind blows. It sucks when nothing seems right, eventhough u do it wholeheartedly.

However, coming upon this typing pad and blogging on my reflection on how my rocky life can be improved, i discover that i need a Church. I have one, that is my school's Christian Union, but being a school leaver, i am again, un-anchored. It is so weird that when u thought that things could never go wrong again, He puts burden upon your shoulders and remind you constantly until you are matured enough. That is the miracle of His ways to keep you on track.

Although many people say that "Life will always go the way u want it to, as long as you work hard enough for it", but to me, life is nothing without spiritual conscience. One may have everything that he's ever longed for, but they are nothing without love.

Thank You o Lord for blessing me with this time to reflect on myself. I thank You for facilitating me as i was going my dark days, and now that i've been awakened from my slumber of blunder, i pray to You o Heavenly Father to continously be with me, and care for me and guide me as how i had experienced during the days that i was in the Light. I have also sinned o Lord, and i pray for Your forgiveness. I pray for wisdom Lord and i also pray for strength to survive Lord. i have never rejected You o Lord and i give You my vow, i will love You with all my heart, and i will sing of Your praise everyday with a feeling until the day we shall be re-united again.

In Jesus Christ's most precious name i pray..... Amen...

Saturday, October 29, 2005

Sat, 29 Oct 2005 16:10:05 GMT

Arrrgh.. Exams getting near by the SECOND (exaggerating)... So, ok, we're all counting in minutes >.<

But the past week has really set me on a scale where i start to work again, WTH have i been doing?!! Lazy me...

So, coming to compose another blog entry tonite, it's ironically 22 days, since i last wrote here... But thoughts have been going in my mind for the past week, on what should i post, as i've skipped 3, maybe 4 weeks of school, since that Pn. Zahrah "incident"... HAHAHAHA!!!

Well, basically, i've lazed around on my computer, browsing through my "clan" forums, posting nonsense, joking, well, very much playing around...

So today, well, aherm, yesterday i mean, i went to Tesco, Mutiara D'sara, met Sukhbir there who's doing Aircraft Engineering with MAS... He got 2.8 CGPA for STPM '04, 2.0 for both Maths and Chemistry and 1A for Physics for his SPM, he used that to apply for a place with MAS, considering how he admitted that he played around during Form 6, he was lucky that he managed to get a contract with MAS (good for u, dude!!), and a secured job as well... His advice to me just now was "Do not screw up ur STPM man, i've screwed up, i know!!"

And i've also been thinking for the past weeks, "What am i going to do? Where can i go? Who is going to help me?"; those questions has been going in my mind, though i put my faith in the Lord, and i am willing to surrender everything i have to Him, and let Him handle my life, but one thing is certain, I STILL NEED TO DO MY PART~

Believing and worshipping Him is not enough, it is never enough for all other Christians out there, so i've somehow, termed Christianity into 2 groups, a believer, and a Christian... A believer is just merely someone who believes in the existence of the God of Love, that any freethinkers and Buddhists and Hindus would accept, but not all believers are able to commit themselves to the Lord, so much that they are doing His work on earth, to reflect His glory...

i have been lazy, i have been ignorant, i have also been disrespectful to my parents and those older than me, for i still allow my ego to be used by the devil for his evil purposes, as it is said, "an idle mind is the devil's workshop"; this totally reflects the two terms i just thought of, i was merely a believer, and the Lord wouldn't actually accept those who are merely just that, worshipping the Lord and to be in a good relationship with Him goes beyond believing as it requires sacrifices and TOTAL submission. i've repent before, but i still do mistakes over and over again, bad things that've caused hurt to my dear blood father who has been tolerant for many years to keep up with my behavior, what he has done for the family is truly Christian, he's a believer, but he doesn't do the work of God.

Yet, the Lord allowed all these happenings to take place, and through my constantly "semi-philosophical" thinking mind, i could see how one event leads to the other, in a way so special that no wonder, the Lord is full of wonders, how he shaped and molded me, and how did the events that led to my father's backsliding has made me a "critical thinking Christian"... i do not intend to boast myself, i am just saying of what i have been doing, since i've accepted the Lord into my life.

At first, i thought that i might just enrol into a Pastoring School and work for the Lord by preaching, but a remark from my father hit me... "Nobody's going to look up to a pastor who leaves school for theology to preaching!!"... That was, what i now see, as an "escape route" of a carrier after STPM. But now, to me, what's most important in a preacher are the things that he's done to reflect the glory of the Lord. It takes years of effort to build up such trait, the ability to bring a church into a state where outsiders would be touched by the ways the members of a church carry themselves. Behavior and qualities that begins in the church. Most successful pastors and preachers i've observed, are those who has worked as a professional, perhaps a lawyer or an engineer, whose deeds and "worldly riches" truly reflects the glory of the Lord of what amazing things that He could do, as long as one plays their part, He would NEVER abandon His child who has repent and is willing to work for Him.

"Be steadfast and courteous"... Those are the words that Uncle Levi, Angel's father told me when i was going into a cursing nature, i've repent .. That shows that it is never easy to live the life of how Christ once did when he dwelled as a Galillean. So now i understand, when i am to commit myself into something, i have gotta make sure that i finish the job. Life's all about work, so once u allow a lazy nature to run your life, it's difficult to get out of it... But Jesus once told a man who has lost the ability to walk, "You there, stand up!!".. So he stood, and it is that very miracle and self effort that is required to put oneself out of a misery... Currently i am still in search of what i could do after STPM, i don't want to end up a bump, though my father can feed me, but if i am going to lead a life in a church, working a RM2000 salary (max salary i suppose for a non-grad), and still depend on my father on accomodation and meals, i'd be ashamed to even admit myself for being a believer as i would certainly taint the image of Christ in the eyes of the people around me (although i clearly know that the Glory of God is indescribable), that many has struggled to uphold.

So much for the thoughts i've shared in my blog, i still need to get back to my books, so i now end my post for tonite, with a word of prayer, to vow and TRUELY commit myself to the Lord, and give thanks for His constant guidance, and for the gift that he has put in me, Amen...

ps: would be rite back on the 21st of November 2005, by His will (that means if i am still alive), to post a better testimony of me, living a Christian Life. For now, full course on STPM!!!!!!! And mostly, thanks for your time...

PTL and Hallelujah~

Saturday, October 08, 2005

Sat, 08 Oct 2005 18:42:43 GMT

Sian ar~~~~~~~~~~~~

Pls allow me to put myself together first, ugh, exams so near, and i still suck in chem. Sighz...

Be right back in a day or two after....... i'm off to dreaming again.....

Where are YOU when i need YOU? *slaps my forehead*